A Day at a Time

Here I am again, year after year, month after month, day after day, minute after minute back in the same place I have been stuck for at least over a decade. I fell off the wagon again. 

I was doing so well during the stay at home phase of covid because I walked often at the park or on my treadmill at home. I was having a hard time losing weight but at least I was keeping active. Then I had to go back to the office in May 2021 and all my exercise ended. I have barely exercised in over 7 months and I make very poor food choices. For two months I did walk a lot in a temporary job where I was placed but I ate so poorly that I didn't lose much weight. 

I'm pretty sure that I am currently over 300 pounds. At one point I was 311. I'm not even weighing myself again until I get my exercise back up and running again. I am SO PHYSICALLY UNCOMFORTABLE in my body. Yet, I still can't seem to get my shit together in this area.

But the good news is that I am here blogging again, ready to address the issue...again. And I am here to try to hold myself accountable. Ironic that I joined the A-Z challenge where you blog about topics for a month and right after the first post about accountability I fell off the wagon. Typical.

I do feel a deep sense of shame because I can't seem to get this right. I can't seem to make myself and my health a priority but I sure can go above and beyond for work or for people who don't even value me that much. 

This time I am not going to make any promises about getting it right this time. I am just here, in the moment, back at blogging about my weight loss and trying to get back on track. I will just take it a day at a time.